Audio – Miscellanous Dreams III

Yeah, you can probably figure out why it’s taken so long to write another dreamlog…I just can’t remember anything anymore :( It’s funny I’d have a snow dream right before snow though. A cold snap is beginning (again) so we’re probably in for more.

I also did nothing for the 4th anniversary of this blog…I don’t think this blog’s too popular despite how long it’s been going, probably because of its esoteric subject matter and sporadic activity. My most active times have ALWAYS been during Story A Day but I haven’t had the time, which is sad because I’ve gotten so much better at writing since I last did it. It’d be crazy if this blog hits its 5th anniversary, which it probably will. The more time goes by, the more of my old writing I find I dislike – even stuff I used to be proud of is stuff I can barely read, which is both a blessing and a curse. I’ve written better since then, and I’ve been thinking of doing another Story A Day, but that’s in May and I KNOW I won’t be able to do that without hurting myself in the process. I could do it on another month but where’s the fun in that? (Same for 750 Words, that DOES sound fun actually…)

I know I can write, and become even better. But I’ve been growing more and more fatigued over the course of the last few years and I’m not sure how much free energy (and attention) for it at this point. My motivation is mostly driven by whatever emotion drives whatever I’m writing, but that’s pretty erratic too. Oh well. Life isn’t always unforgiving.


Audio – Where Wolves Rise

My absence hasn’t really been business so much as it’s been memory issues. I’ve had plenty of interesting dreams that I WISHED I could write down but…since September I’ve just been completely unable to remember anything the moment I wake up…which COULD be due to me being busy, or maybe due to my complete loss of focus over the last few months.

The final creature was actually Zinogre from the Monster Hunter series, but I doubt anyone would get that so I just approximated it. I did go on holiday in August and relax on a beach, and it was that exact beach, actually. This dream isn’t as impactful as some of the other ones I’ve had, but…it’s the first I remember in which I’ve been able to stop time.

I hope you’ve all had nice holidays so far! Christmas was unremarkable for me, but we got a few days of snow in December and it was wonderful, given that it was the first time in years I’ve had snow over here. The tranquil silence that falls over a town when it snows is the best. (On another note, this blog’s almost 4 years old, wow…)

Audio – Port Town

I’m fairly sure the police theme came from Brooklyn Nine-Nine. I’m also fairly sure that for a few seconds in that dream, I confused myself for Jake Peralta. My squadmates may also have been the Nine-Nine at some points, but I can’t really be sure.

Three million years, and we didn’t even seem to care much that humanity might be gone. It must have been a glitch in the system, then.

I loved the idea of a second earth I could go to, almost like…paradise. It really felt like I was reaching for something.

I’m sad summer’s over, though. I went on holiday to the Isle of Wight. I had a fair few dreams, but…I never had a chance to write them down on the mornings after, always had something I had to do, and I forgot by the time I got back to my laptop…it’s getting cold, and I miss summer. I guess I miss every summer though. Maybe winter will be nice to me? (Please let there be snow though, it’s the only way I can tolerate cold)

Audio – Song of Storms

(I feel like I’m being repetitive by choosing Rosetta, but…it turns out it’s been over two years since I last used their tracks. I still love Wake/Lift, so I choose this one. I’m listening to (Temet Nosce) from the same album on my fifth repeat as I type this. It’s so relaxing…on another note, no, it isn’t meant to be an Ocarina of Time/Majora’s Mask reference, really, but it can be one if you want.)

I have to say, for only two hours of sleeping to try and recover from illness, that left a mark on me. The third dream was the most real that a dream’s ever felt to me, from the photo-taking right down to the way I remember myself speaking. It makes me feel kinda wistful that I don’t really have any person to go on summer adventures with right now. I don’t want to feel like I’m wasting the summer, but then again, we’ve had nothing but rain for the last week or two. It’s also been a while since I ended a dream by realising I was in a dream. I remember when I was younger, realising I was in a dream would make the dream turn into a nightmare, so I learned to stop doing that…I’m seriously sad that hub/centre doesn’t exist though, since it seemed like such a cool idea. Oh well…

Audio – Summertime Blues

So Celeste (and Kingmaker implied) from Beginning of the End comes back, huh? I’m surprised. The stargazing was pretty beautiful if I remember. I don’t get too many chances to stargaze in real life any more, though I’ll always remember the few times I saw a shooting star walking home. The mansion’s technology was running Windows 7 or something similar if I remember, yet the other technologies seemed to be a lot more advanced. It’s a dream I’ve probably had a few times before though, similar ones anyway, so I’m not sure if I have TOO much to say on this one…it had kind of a Southern (USA) touch to it? I liked it myself.

I just hope for more interesting dreams, I guess? I can’t really tell when my lazy days and my busy days will be anymore.

Audio – Will ‘o the Wisp

You can probably tell the standard set of excuses I’m going to use for not being active, so I’ll just dispense with them for now.

The spirit seemed pretty friendly in that dream, so it’s a shame I didn’t see more of them…I’m also disappointed I don’t remember any of the locations, though looking through the window of an office in a train car and seeing the Alps was an amazing sight. The United States will seemingly always be in my dreams, though I have no plans to go back there now. I’ve been thinking of travelling to break the fatigue and ennui that seems to have onset over the last few months, but I don’t really have the money for that, so I might just go on a few big days out across my home country. That’s pretty exciting as well, though.

Audio – Empty Set

If I remember correctly, I listened to this before I went to bed on the night

Last dreamlog on that festival, I SWEAR it!! This dream had a real “moving on” feel to it. I’m finally over the event, it seems, even if some part of my mind is already making some plans on what to do about the 2018 one.

It definitely felt strange to be in full control again in a dream. For the last year I’ve been mostly totally unaware I was dreaming, even recalling false memories in some of them. I’m not sure if I’ve ever dreamed something that close to an actual memory of mine before, though. The last day of that convention is really something. It feels sad that you’re not going to see everyone for another year (and that’s assuming you’re even going next year) yet also…happy? It’s the last day with everyone for a long time and you know you have to make the best of it. As you can tell, goodbyes and thinking about them is something I’m maybe a little too fixated on. I’m not the best at letting go, but who is?

I’m hoping for some more interesting dreams. I still can’t believe I’ve been running this blog for over 3 years. Maybe I should try to sharpen my writing again? My dreamlog style currently seems to be stuck in an awkward spot between “factual recall” and “story writing”. I’m not too bothered though.